This year is going to yet again be an interesting one. Once again, God is on the move and working in my life. I love that we have a big God who does big things. These big things amaze me because they are always for His glory. We get to see our Precious Lord work, change, refine, reshape... everything. Its not always easy, but its always good.
With that being said... I'm in a really hard time of change right now. I'm trying to cling to truth as every day seems to throw another curve ball at me. Or at least a ball I hoped that wouldn't be thrown my way. Today's news... I'm not going home to Cincinnati anymore. The trip is postponed and I know its for the best. I have personal and ministry things to work through at the moment. I don't exactly feel like bearing all kinds of detail here on my blog at the moment... but if you are interested in finding out what all is going on, please personally contact me.
I guess by writing this, I'm asking all of you to pray for me. Even if you don't pray... just toss up something for me. See how the Lord works. Pray that I would hear truth and remain in it. Pray also that I would continue to praise the Lord because He is good in ALL things. Pray that I would continue to boldly walk through the challenges God is setting before me. Please pray for my comfort. I can't turn to anything else, but the Lord. Also, pray for freedom. Pray that I would feel free from the tendency to perform and act as if I have it all together; freedom from putting myself under incredible amounts of pressure that NO ONE has asked me to be under; freedom from standards that are voiced and unvoiced; freedom from sin.
Earlier this year... possibly March, God gave me Isaiah 43. I wrote in my bible that it's my new favorite chapter. v. 2 says, "When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you." I believe the water refers to times of taking significant steps of faith for the Lord. The Children of Israel had to do this when the crossed the Red Sea and when they crossed the Jordan River. In both cases, there was incredible uncertainty but a desperate need for trust. When there is mention of fire, all I can think about is how fire refers to refinement. There is a purification when things are put into the fire; all of the things at are supposed to last, will. Throughout these two incredibly challenging processes, the Lord promises that He will be there. He makes mention of how these things are challenging, but they are for the good. In Romans 8:28 Paul says, "And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose."
If you lead me Lord, I will follow. Where you lead me Lord, I will go. Come and heal me Lord, I will follow. Where you lead me Lord, I will go. I will go.... even if that means through the water and through fire. Take me. Refine me. Use me for your will. Amen.